The long and short of it is that several months back my husband and I nearly divorced after the birth of our first child. We had been having problems for some time and had not taken steps to fix our marriage; so the birth of our son put a lot of strain on our relationship. (Note: we both love our son dearly; I am only referring to how we felt about one another)
Anyway, things reached a boiling point one night and the next day my husband said he was finished and filed for a divorce while I was away for the night on business.
Sadly, my husband used my 4 month old at the time as a pawn. Due to SC law saying that ownership in 9/10ths posession, he took my child and went to my in-laws; refusing to let me see him until our court date. The police could do nothing for me no matter how many times I called them b/c we had not yet been to court to establish custody and he was the father.
I was devastated. But, what gets me the most was that all of my in-laws, with the exception of my father in-law, got deeply involved in my marriage AND with my child. My sister in-law would call me daily to yell at me and my mother-in-law and her mother hid my child from me. I did not know where my baby was for days until the cops told her she had to tell me. When I finally did track him down, I cornered her and called the police. Again, since my husband left our child in her "care" I could not legally make her give him to me. She said if she gave me MY child that she’d never see him again. I HATED her and cried every night for three weeks, sleeping with my childs clothes.
Then in court my husbands ENTIRE family showed up. Parents, siblings, grandparents, aunts, uncles and even his brothers girl friend. I was mortified still at the court granting joint custody with the stunts that my husband and his family had pulled.
Months later my husand and I finally stopped fighting and started working out our marriage with counseling. We are great now but trust will take a very long time. Much longer than love.
My problem is that my husband is SUPER close with his family. My mother-in-law watches my child while we both work and I have to drop him off to her everyday. I want to put him in daycare at this point. She pretends nothing happened but can’t hide the fake smile. My husband goes over there once a week or more for family gatherings and I go with him b/c it’s important to him for us to all be a family but in reality I hate everyone. His brother and his gf avoid me totally; his mother, sister, her fiancee and his nanny gossip about me like I can’t hear them in the other room and I don’t like any of them to touch my child while I am there.
I am trying desperately hard to put on a good front but I can’t even look them in the eyes and I have no desire to even speak to any of them. All I see when I look at my mother-in-law is her running away from me in a parking lot with my child like a crazy person.
My husband has stood up for me "supposedly" by telling them that I am his wife so they had to be nice, but that has only made everything akward b/c we have to pretend we like one another now.
I have spoken with his brother about this and he still avoids me. I have not yet spoken with the other members of his family b/c I do not think that the conversation would go well.
It was none of their business to EVER get involved with my marriage and my child. How do I truly forgive these people when I despise them underneath it all?
I’ve seen a rude comment or two on raising my own child and working and I have to say that I am a little shocked. I guess I thought with our economy veering towards depression while a gallon of milk rises to a gallon, that most households required two incomes at this point. But, to clarify for the nasties out there: I don’t use anyone as a sitter while I go out and have fun all day. I actually pay my mother in law the same amount that I would pay a daycare b/c I feel that it’s better for my child to have that undivided attention. Unfortunately, some women have to work b/c we did not marry for money. Others work b/c they enjoy it. That doesn’t make anyone a bad mother! I would give my right arm to stay home with my son all day and never have to take a business trip or watch my son cry as I leave him daily; believe me! It eats at me- much like it does many other mothers who need to work to help provide. It’s not just a man’s responsibility to take care of the bills.




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